Missing you both

My daughter Getzia, RIP and her baby Jayleanna...

A grown-up Jayleanna, now 15 years old... 

I miss my daughter, who is in Heaven this Christmas, and I miss Jayley because, even though she is in the same state, I can't see her because of my mistake: I called DCF on him.  I tried to protect my granddaughter because she was scared of her father's temper and started crying and begged me not to let her go back to that house.  She said he would hit her.  I know he does and she is still scared of him.  Grandma's heart tells me so.  But what can this little woman do?  It was different when grandpa was alive, because he had more resources than I do, and between the two of us, we fought to see her because this criminal that is her father has been manipulating the situation since he came in the picture.  With the help and blessing of DCF, of course. Yes, the same people who harrased and intimidated my daughter to death, and didn't even had the decency to say "sorry for your loss", those same people.  The Director they had then, Patricia Martinez, was at least someone that I could communicate with and who showed a great deal of humanity towards my granddaughter.  But nobody's perfect and certain people in there didn't like her.   Or she quit, I don't know the truth.  But it was even worse after she left.  My daughter's "nice" caseworker suffered a breakdown and had to leave, and it wasn't easy to get her to help with this fight this time.  I understand and respect her right to privacy, so I left her alone.   I have kept prayers going for my granddaughter, short messages on her phone, and pictures, images, gifs, you name it, on different social pages.  Even if she doesn't see them, one day she will.   And she will know how much grandma loves her.   And I always say, Jayley, I love you more than you will ever know...